A Very Sad Update.

So I think it’s well known that I hate killing off characters, but if I think it is needed in the plot, then I do so. For the final draft, I will get around to killing off a certain main character that I refused to kill off in the previous drafts. It just seemed ridiculous to me that they stayed alive, really. I only kept them alive because of how scared I was to kill them. It changes the plot of the second book slightly, but it’s important that it happens. Otherwise, it’s not realistic and the whole point of the story is not as compelling.

I REALLY hate myself for doing this. The fans will probably hate me just as much, but I can live with that.

To end this off nicely, for the final draft, I will finally do what I proudly proclaimed I would do initially. Now, half of the book is from the protagonist’s perspective and the other half is from the antagonist’s perspective.

Basically, what I’m telling you is that there is now no antagonist or protagonist. There are just warring sides. And really, that’s what I should have done all along.

Gabriel, out.



I would have never imagined the day! I am crazy excited!!

Thank you guys so much! You’re such gems.

For those who are interested, I have another Tumblr for my books called @darkveilbooks . The Dark Veil Saga is a Dark Fantasy/Steampunk series, and I plan to get the first book out by early next year. I haven’t done much on it yet, but more will be coming!


I can create a 400-year backstory to my series that only I know and will probably never be published in its entirety.
I can create a basic alphabet and I continue to work on a constructed language.
I can create a 350-word story and still have three more books planned in my head.
I can create entire worlds with ink and paper.

But I still cannot do a freaking FAFSA or my taxes without assistance.


Less than twenty followers away from hitting 100! For those who are just checkin’ this blog out, I’m a writer who’s currently working on a dark fantasy/steampunk series. So I post occasional stuff about that, writing tips, book reviews (very occasionally) and fandom stuff. So, yeah! Check us out and give a follow if you’re interested!

A Writer and Her Keyboard: The Growing Pains of The Internet Base


In terms of daily routine, the writerly life is not a colorful one. I spend most free afternoons mornings checking in on whatever emails and notifications I have. I fix a pot of tea and wake up my brain before promptly shutting off my Internet and settling in to write. There are breaks for reading, food, and more tea, but very little changes of this routine until the wee hours of the morning.

I love my job, but I’m a social creature. Hours of writing are tedious, even to those who love writing. Which is why I love being connected to my readership; I love notes on here, or Pinterest, or Goodreads. I love when my readers let me know how much they enjoyed reading something, or how much they look forward to a book, or if they like a picture of my cats. These comments remind me that my hours are worth the effort to someone, even if it’s just one person. That connection is so, so special.

And I know I’m not alone in that feeling. Many writers take to social media and actively reach out to their audiences, creating a unique experience that only the Internet can offer: a direct connection. This is, in its own right, one of the best tools to hand the often reclusive writer and the often shy reader. The walls of pomp and business are broken down, leaving only people and conversation in its stead.

With this world into the interpersonal artist has its roadblocks. Social media is oftentimes as treacherous as it is kind, especially to the open-minded writer and the honest reader. Many popular authors such as John Green and Cassandra Clare formed a good dynamic with their bases, only to be forced to guard themselves when their books’ audiences grew. Rumors fly. Hate-mail rolls in. Arguments proceed. And with most authors manning their own social media, the line between what not to react to can become difficult.

And of course, there are indie authors. Small-timers and self-published folks, like myself. Oftentimes, the indie author’s image is their starting point. So many blogs encourage having an online presence far before you begin pushing a book. As an indie author, this will probably be your first and best step, because your online base counts for a lot. This will also be the worst step, because your readers now make and break you, depending not only on your writing, but on your behavior.

Over the summer, the whole of the writing world laughed when indie-published Dylan


had a meltdown over a single negative reviewer. He came under fire on Goodreads; his ratings and reputation were tarnished in the aftermath. Searching “indie author meltdown” pulls him up fast, amongst a number of others who have committed “social-media suicide.” Fits thrown at reviewers. Fights with other authors. Flame wars that burn with the fuel of a thousand careers. Without a publishing house to fall onto, or an agent to pull people back, many of these authors vanish into the ether. After all, rep is everything and the Internet is forever.

The idea to finish this blog post, which I started in June, was admittedly spurred from my own recent experiences with the Internet. My small-sized writing community suffered a few incidents of author fit-throwing and bad behavior. Doing well in a recent contest, my intentions when critiquing were called into question. I watched as several well-known writer friends had the same (and worse) thrown their way over simple ranks in a competition.

I sighed and fought the urge to get too annoyed. Coming from a five-year stint in fan fiction and four years as an active, semi-popular YouTuber, I have weathered familiar storms.

An unfortunate effort to share my work with a particular editing event had one member so angry she started a rampage because I was a “subscription whore”. The fight grew nasty enough that the bully began spreading rumors about me to viewers through PM.

Several 4chan members found me through an anti-bullying campaign video, its removal ironically ending the harassment and threats I had received for a week.

A young member of my fan fiction group once faked his own death for attention.
A young AMV editor I exchanged emails with was reported dead in 2010, having killed herself over bullying on the site.

You just cannot win.

But you can press forward.

The Internet is concentrated troll, and you cannot fight that part. Witnessing what I have over the years though, I have also experienced a great deal of kindness and support from people who are basic strangers to my real life. Awkward and lacking in verbal communication, but still meaningful.

The author’s relationship with their readership is just another example of this awkwardness. Our culture bashes on the famous and creative like they are not people; the Internet expects them to participate like they are. Neither know how to handle this responsibility. We continue break barriers, even though we are no longer sure how to act. As I recently read from Amanda Palmer, “some people just suck.” But that doesn’t mean everyone does, nor do they have to.

I personally love my connection with my readers and fellow authors. I thrive better, knowing they are out there somewhere. To that end, I hope the growing culture around viewer/creator connections will foster a more positive environment. A little kindness goes a long way.

Friends, please follow this amazing writer. She really is amazing.

Almost 100 Followers!!


I am one follower away from having 100 FOLLOWERS! For a guy who basically only posts once every other day, this is pretty darn impressive. I eagerly await the next one, so I can throw a mini-party in my dorm room.

For those who do not know what this blog is about, I’m currently writing a fantasy novel while in college. No, not a short story, not novella… novel. So my life is basically a mixture…

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