An Apology and An Explanation

So I haven’t written anything in a long while. Social Media has been bereft of my presence far too long, and I want to fix that. The reason is simply that I have been taking up most of my time with writing. Writing, writing, writing! I’m trying to finish the second draft of Dark Soldier before the end of July. That’s quite a feat. But I’m keeping myself back by one problem.

Publishing anxiety.

Now it’s not to say I don’t love the characters. I find them fun and organic, witty and human. I don’t mind showing the book to an editor. I don’t even mind sending out bits of scenes to the general public. But the whole book? That feels… odd… to say the least. The fact is that once something’s out there, it is out there to stay. So I have been perfecting it to the best of my ability. I know that I’ll have someone editing before it’s published. And yet, I worry about it a great deal. I’m taking a risk, and as with all risks, there are second thoughts. These are mine.

Perhaps I shouldn’t put my worries out there on the internet, yet here we are.

In a concluding thought, I am considering changing the name of the book. It is currently “Dark Soldier”. My other name plan is “Monsters Within”. Thoughts?

Having severe first book anxiety. 

Am I being self-centered by thinking it’s good?
Are they going to use that dreaded word “ok”?
How many times will I get rejected?
Will I have bored them by the first chapter if i does get published?
Is someone going to hate this book?
Is someone going to love this book?
Is it really any good?

Am I the only one who has this problem?

Faith Fridays: The Slough of Despair

We’re talking about a very hard thing today on Faith Friday: depression.

Faith Fridays

Today’s Faith Friday is about something rarely talked about in the church. What part does depression have in the life of a Christian? And furthermore, is it a sin to be depressed? The short answer? No. The long answer? It really depends on the situation, but for the most part it is not a sin to be depressed. I want to encourage those who struggle with depression – even Christ was distressed with…

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Faith Fridays: The Slough of Despair

Today’s Faith Friday is about something rarely talked about in the church. What part does depression have in the life of a Christian? And furthermore, is it a sin to be depressed?

The short answer? No.

The long answer? It really depends on the situation, but for the most part it is not a sin to be depressed. I want to encourage those who struggle with depression – even Christ was distressed with the situation of the world. Take Luke 19: 41 – 44 for example. He is actually crying because they aren’t seeing what’s right in front of them – a Savior. He weeped over his dead friend. It is not a bad thing to be sad or depressed. The world is in a sinful state. Bad things are happening. People are dying and in pain and suffering. It is not wrong to be distressed about the state of the world around us. It is not wrong to want a perfect world, as that is what we were made for. Continue reading “Faith Fridays: The Slough of Despair”